The days of such struggles have been going on for a long time, and until now, they will still appear, but I have begun to perceive them more acutely than before, but it has also made me very exhausting in my heart. When I tried my best to resist, but I still knew the suffering and felt helpless, the Lord said to me through the small voice of the Holy Spirit:
“My blood is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”
At that time, I did not understand how the blood of the Lord Jesus helped me? Why is it enough for me? One day, when I knelt down to read the Bible, and those negative thoughts were rampant again, I remembered what the Lord said to me, and for some reason, I said helplessly to the Lord in my heart: “Lord, please cover my sins with Your precious blood!” At that moment, the feeling was as if someone poured cold water into a red-hot frying pan, the fiery and restless soul was quickly cooled down by the cold water at that moment. I can’t even remember the reason. Gradually, before I read the Bible every day, I would pray first, asking the Lord’s precious blood to cover my sins, and praying that when I read the Bible and pray, I would be free from the sinful thoughts in my heart from the source, all kinds of negative thoughts or self-righteous thoughts are drawn, so that my mind will not turns away from the Lord Jesus. Then I slowly discovered that every time I asked the Lord’s precious blood to cover my sins, there was an instant vibration in my heart, like cold water pouring down a hot frying pan. The moment I discovered it, I felt why it was the same every time, am I so bad? Do I accept sin every day? But the source of the irritability in my heart was quiet, and I saw a bright turning point!
Then, one day, when I read 1 John 5:5-8:
“Who is the one who overcomes the world, but the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?
This is the One who came by water and blood, Jesus Christ; not with the water only, but with the water and with the blood. It is the Spirit who testifies, because the Spirit is the truth.
For there are three that testify:
the Spirit and the water and the blood; and the three are in agreement.“
The words that the Holy Spirit said to me and the scene of my heart being shaken every day when I was covered by the precious blood of the Lord appeared in my heart, and I had mixed feelings. Whether or not I thought that the blood of the Lord mentioned in these verses of the Bible was only a one-time occurrence of the Lord? Jesus poured out on the cross, when we are in trouble, we do not even need to ask, the blood of Jesus have washed all believers from the sin of rebellion before, now and in the future? I start to have reservations on this statement. Then, one day, when I read Revelation 12:10-11, it says:
“Then I heard a loud voice in heaven, saying,
“Now the salvation, and the power, and the kingdom of our God and the authority of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brothers and sisters has been thrown down, the one who accuses them before our God day and night.
And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death.”
The spirit in my heart was moved, as if my eyes became clear, I saw that I was able to overcome the negative emotions in my heart came from nowhere because of the precious blood of the Lord and my testimony to witness that Jesus Christ is the Son of the Living God. I thank my Lord from the bottom of my heart, even if I am not perfect, but a Christian ruled by half the flesh and half the Holy Spirit, this has become my proof as a child of God, and I will be able to see the Lord’s face without fear after death. Good assurance, because the blood of the Lord, flowing in my heart and soul, is covering my self-seeking and self-righteous nature. In the last few years and in the future of my life, even if I stumble and fall, or I suddenly follow my fleshly desires and become hypocrites, as long as I kneel down to meet the Lord, He will let me see it in my heart, and I will ask him to forgive me and He will. The status of that honorable child of God is also a status that I do not deserve, because the precious blood of the Lord covers my uptight attitude and self-righteousness nature before His throne every day. I thank my Lord Jesus, who will come to find me in the vast sea of people, give His children the Holy Spirit, and cover all of His children with His precious blood! In this crooked world, glory to my Lord Jesus, until the end of the world, I will see His face again!
Brothers and sisters in the Lord, if one day you find that you have some negative or proud thoughts in your heart that you can’t accept that you have, or you often doze off and drop your eyelids when reading God’s words, or often cannot concentrate on reading the Bible and being attracted by the distracting thoughts that appeared in your mind. You must know the Lord Jesus is alive. If not, how can He remind me when I curse others? Nor will He remind me when I am at a loss that His precious blood is enough for me? If the Holy Spirit reminds you of my testimony when you are cornered, if you believe that the precious blood of the Son of God can help you, may you also experience the blood of the Lord covering you and covering the self-righteous-sinful source. May the Lord who protecting me from being destroyed by stumbling of my flesh will also keep your heart and mind until the day we meet Him again!
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Christian Faith Discussion 
Ricky, I also read this blog post about how the precious blood of Christ covers us from all sin and the power of this. Thank you for posting. – Carl
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