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Dad, I wrote this letter to you. Although I posted this letter on the Internet, I want all readers who read this letter to testify to my commitment to you in this letter. You must read this letter, lest readers all over the world know what I want to say to you, and my father himself does not know.

Do you remember? When I was young, my mom often went to the back mountain of a village for morning exercise. When I was a child, once, for some reason, I wanted to go to the back mountain to find her. Our home is a ten-minute walk away, and I don’t remember how I opened the door and walked out. After two blocks, I suddenly turned around and saw you, Dad, still wearing pajamas, hurried over, grabbed my hand, and took me back home. I don’t remember whether you said anything to me at that time, I only remember your back in pajamas, and I was hold by your hand following you and walking home all the way. Recently, in my heart, there is often that scene of you holding my hand to go home. The Spirit of God often reminds me in my heart: “Your father also loved you sincerely, don’t be fooled by that illusion of resentment that often appears in your heart. When you were controlled by the evil one, I stopped you from making big mistakes and asked you to forgive your father and yourself. My promise still doesn’t change today. Do you remember? I made a promise to you when you first accepted me as your savior, the first time you begged me to rebuke you after you prayed, and fell asleep. Didn’t I say to you, when you believe in the Lord Jesus, you and your family will be saved? After you have been a confused Christian for more than 20 years and repent, am I not asking you to share the gospel with your parents through your son’s mouth? Didn’t I tell you when you later doubted and asked me, you only need to believe in me. Because of my name, I will also save them from the hands of the evil one. You have to seek me first My Kingdom and My Righteousness, and other things will be given to you.”

Dad, do you know that, in the past, my heart was actually full of despair. In despair, I have even more resentment. I used to hate all the false so-called benevolence and love in this world, and I also hated why I was cursed by God, and why I grew up in such a difficult family. Until I met Him, the Lord Jesus who changed my life, the Trinity God who created the heaven and the earth. He also changed my entire soul and promised that if I believed in Him, He will save my parents and sibling to have eternal life in heaven. When His promise first initially resolved the bondage of sin after I truly repented a few years ago. Secondly, I was self-centered in getting along with Him. Thirdly, I couldn’t really love all other God’s children from my heart. Fourthly, the resolution of my fear of suffering, ridicule, being persecuted, and even dying for sharing the gospel. Furthermore, my Lord Jesus made me understand that the precious blood of Him and His name can drive away all kinds of evil thoughts in my heart. The evil thoughts came from the understanding to distinguish between good and evil but just to please my own pleasure. I have already made up my mind to follow my Lord Jesus. In addition, the Lord Jesus did not enslave me. He never shouted at me in my heart. He is the Son of God. With such a noble status, He is legally having the authority to order me as a slave. Instead, He treats me as a friend. My Lord Jesus will only call me to voluntarily repent in my heart. Although I fear Him when He disciplines me. He has always respected me. Even thirty years earlier, He promised me and gave me the promise to lead my father and sidling to accept Him as their personal Savior. (detailed in Struck down, but not destroyed (Part 1 of 4)). At this moment, my heart is no longer bound by resentment and self-pity. Although I am still impatient with you, it is full of gratitude that I have never had before. Thank you my Heavenly Father for putting me to grow up in this family! Thank you Him, twice reminded me, let me prevent my brother from committing great sins against Him. And so, we can survive and have the opportunity to know Him. Thank you my Heavenly Father for calling me in my heart, preventing me from falling into the tricks of the devil, and wanting to perish together with you, Dad! Thank you Him for letting me miss you all the time, and thank you for the family that my Heavenly Father arranged for me on this earth. This family that people in the world who have never been truly forgiven will despise. On the contrary, the Lord Jesus taught me that my parent’s family shall be the most precious to me. So in this life, I shall share the Lord Jesus who gave His life and blood for me. It is a reasonable thing over everything.

When the Lord Jesus let me experience His love and forgiveness many times, although I still hate you for your selfish behavior, for your own purpose and face, even can spread disputes to your own family. We, brothers and sisters of your own blood, do not trust each other. But once, the Lord Jesus let me know that I still love you from the bottom of my heart, Dad! That time, I cried terribly. I didn’t want your soul to go down to hell and be separated from me forever. Although I sometimes hated you, after that day, I realized at the same time how much I hated you. It is the same degree as how much I love you too. You have been making arrangements for yourself after death at your funeral. You want me to offer you a stick of incense in your mourning hall. This will dishonor our Creator. I believe in the true God who created the world, the one who came to this world originally created by Him, saved me from the evil one, and made me a child of God. His words are the Laws and truth of the world and the universe. He said:

Exodus 20:2-6 records:
“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery.
You shall have no other gods before Me.
You shall not make for yourself an idol, or any likeness of what is in heaven above or on the earth beneath, or in the water under the earth.
You shall not worship them nor serve them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, inflicting the punishment of the fathers on the children, on the third and the fourth generations of those who hate Me,
but showing favor to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments.”

Isaiah 43:10B-13 records:
“Before Me there was no God formed,
And there will be none after Me.
I, only I, am the Lord,
And there is no savior besides Me.
It is I who have declared and saved and proclaimed,
And there was no strange god among you;
So you are My witnesses,” declares the Lord,
“And I am God.
Even from eternity I am He,
And there is no one who can rescue from My hand;
I act, and who can reverse it?”

Dad, you once questioned that in this world, so many religions say that what they believe in is the true God, how do you know that the Lord Jesus sharing by Christianity is the true God? Moreover, Christian believers also have many bad people. If the Lord Jesus is the true God, why are there so many hypocritical and self-righteous Christians, and Jesus cannot teach His own believers well? How can Jesus be the true God?

Dad, my Lord Jesus, is the Creator of all things, the Son of God. I have never heard of a God believed in by a religion who can tell a puny believer thirty years in advance that “when you believe in the Lord Jesus, you and your whole family will be saved.” Moreover, if the other so-called gods are true God, why did only the Lord Jesus come, in my heart, reminded me to forgive you and myself, and prevent me from taking revenge on you? (Detailed in One Thought Repent Longing to Heaven (1)) Why don’t other so-called gods come to stop me? Are those gods not godly enough and sleeping? Or do they have to wait for someone else to notify them before they are aware that I’m going to take revenge on you? Or are those gods waiting to see a good show, wanting to see us father and son fight each other? Why can the evil thoughts in my heart be quieted down only when the precious blood of the Lord Jesus covers me? Why is it only by the name of the Lord Jesus that I can drive those evil thoughts out of my heart and dreams? (Detailed in By the Name of the Lord Jesus (Part 1 of 3)) Why can’t I cover and drive away the evil thoughts in my heart by the name of other gods, or by their blood, or by reciting spells? The true God who created the world, there is no distinction between Eastern or Western beliefs. Jesus is the true God who created the world, the only begotten Son of God for all of us. God is willing to send His son to come to this world. In this world, Jesus is looking for lost people like me. People in the world will only spurn or ridicule people who they think are evil or wicked or too difficult to change. On the contrary, my Lord Jesus personally came to find me a sinner, stopped me from sinning, and reminded me that His precious blood is enough for me, and His name can drive away the darkness in my heart. He is reviving my soul and using His name to guide me on the path of righteousness. Can you tell me that is there any more sincere love than this?

In the entire universe, if there are other so-called gods, I will not believe in them. Those gods who don’t know that I am sick, cannot heal me, or turn a blind eye, I have no reason at all to believe in them. There is only the Trinity God I believe in, only Him, and He alone. When people were abandoning me on the surface or secretly, laughing at me in their hearts, or didn’t know how to deal with me, and let me live on my own towards self-dismissal in front of their eyesight. Even when I gave up on myself, He was still in my heart and did not leave me. He pulled me out of the mud, washed my soul, cleansed my heart, so that I could regain my Newborn, and taught me to understand His heart. I only believe in and kneel in front of my Savior Jesus, because He has never abandoned me. I will not do what will shame my Lord and still agree to your request. After you are passing away, in front of the mourning hall, I offer incense to you.

And, Dad, you need to understand two things. Firstly, without the Lord Jesus reminding me in my heart twice, my brother and I were taken back by the Creator early in our life when he planned to find a female for getting married before he repent. Secondly, without the day the Lord Jesus told me to forgive you and forgive myself, your hands would be stained with my blood, and the father would bury his own son. That day, when I entered your home if the Creator hadn’t reminded me through the Holy Spirit, telling me: “Forgive your father and forgive yourself.” I have an 80% to 90% success rate. After what I say to you and when you are in great anger, I will give you a chance to kill me. For the rest of the success rate, while you are in anger, I will grab your hand and stab a knife into my heart. You don’t need to know why I did that, you just need to know that I am your son, and I have passed on the true meaning of your words that you always keep in your heart and become golden sentences, “What I want to do, I will do it no matter what!” I am more ruthless and heartless than you, Dad. I want to take revenge on you, even to give up my own life and the wife and son who love me, no matter what. What I want to do, I will do it no matter what? Is it really worth it? How silly of us, Dad! It’s really two stupid father and son of the same family!

As for us, the people of God, the true God who created the heaven and the earth, he has already explained…

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One day, I suddenly remembered the evil one, just as 1 John 5:19 said, how on earth did the whole world lie under his hand? Then I remembered a Christian’s story about his wife’s cheating. At that time, I uncertainly said to myself, “If the evil one is in the heart of a married man and gives him thought of the cheating association with a good friend of her wife. At the same time, in the hearts of her wife’s good friend, the same seeds were put down. The evil one lets the thoughts often surface in their hearts, making them think it was their own thoughts. Will those two accept the thoughts and sin against their wife and good friend?” Thinking of this, I felt a sense of powerlessness and fear from the bottom of my heart. Right at that moment, the majestic and loving words of the Holy Spirit came to me and said, “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but are unable to kill the soul.” My heart was then no longer feared and became quiet. Son, when you grow up and see this, remember that the Holy Spirit never talks to us in a meaningless way.

After that, a question suddenly appeared in my heart. The question is this: “since the evil one is tempting me, then I am innocent. Why do I have to confess my sins and repent so that I can drive away my dark and negative thoughts in the name of the Lord?” This question remained in my heart until one day, the words of the Lord came to me through the Holy Spirit and said, “Go back and see the first sin of Adam and Eve, and you will know.” Because at that time, I remembered my confusion of “I am innocent”, I know that my Lord is going to guide me in resolving my confusion. As a result, I was reading Eve listened to the serpent’s temptation and she felt that it was good for her to understand good and evil like God does. So, she did not listen to God’s words, ate the fruit, and even gave it to Adam to eat. Adam did not object, so all listened to the serpent’s words and ignored God’s warning. He ate the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. In the end, God didn’t just punish the serpent, even Adam and Eve were punished. When I saw it, I knew that the serpent (the devil) who seduced people was guilty, and Adam and Eve, who listened to the temptation but didn’t listen to God’s words, were also guilty. There was no innocent person, only those who voluntarily picked up the temptation from the evil one and sinned against the Creator of the Universe.

Dear children of God, although this does not fit into this world’s scientific logical thinking category, our Lord Jesus did not once say, “The testimony of two people is true.” I bear witness to the process of being born again that the Lord Jesus let me experience. It is because I believe that the One who told me to speak boldly, He will also bear witness for His own name in the hearts of all people through the Holy Spirit.

Isaiah 42:16 records:

“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them.”

I am especially here to testify to those Christians who are often beaten. Even if others have given up on you, even if you have given up on yourself, I say to you in the name of my Savior Jesus. Our Lord Jesus will not give up on you, He has great power, and can personally pull those who are bound by sin from the mud. It is because His name is greater than the spirit of the world. Please don’t give up on yourself, and don’t give up on prayers. Ask the Lord to cover you with His precious blood, and by the name of the Lord Jesus, drive away the evil thoughts that always haunt you. You are better than those who do well without ever asking the Lord for healing (indeed, as Ecclesiastes 7:20 says, “Indeed, there is no one on earth who is righteous, no one who does what is right and never sins.”), because we have nothing to be proud of ourselves. It’s easier to be humble, it’s easier to trust God, it’s easier to accept God’s power, it’s easier to enter the kingdom of God ahead of others, it’s easier to understand why the Lord Jesus said to the Jewish religious leaders: “Truly I tell you, the tax collectors and the prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God ahead of you. For John came to you to show you the way of righteousness, and you did not believe him, but the tax collectors and the prostitutes did. And even after you saw this, you did not repent and believe him.” But keep in mind that the lure of darkness will use your desire for self-righteousness or self-evidence as nourishment to fuel the fire inside your soul and appear more frequently. No righteous person in the world knows the reason better than a victim like me. Also as recorded in Genesis 4:7 and Acts 4:12:

“If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it.”

“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.”

Therefore, you must repent with all your heart. As long as you are willing to forsake evil and choose good, our Lord Jesus will forgive your sins, walk with you, and help you drive away the darkness in your heart. Because Isaiah 55:7-9/11/13 records:

“Let the wicked forsake their ways
    and the unrighteous their thoughts.
Let them turn to the Lord, and he will have mercy on them,
    and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.
…
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
    It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
    and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
…
Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,
    and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the Lord’s renown,
    for an everlasting sign,
    that will endure forever.”

I thank my Savior Jesus from the bottom of my heart! If it weren’t for him who never left, I would be a living dead person full of all kinds of resentment and pride. It was the Lord who saved me from the hand of the evil one. I want to follow Him all my life, praising and preaching the grace of His redemption. Son, I share with you what the Lord Jesus has done to me. You must keep it in your heart, think carefully, pass it on from generation to generation, and praise God for the wonderful salvation that he has done to your father.

Finally, I conclude with my own personal experience together with the words of the Apostle Peter in Acts 4:10-12 and the Apostle Paul in 1 Corinthians 1:18-31:

then know this, all the children of God: It is by the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, whom you crucified but whom God raised from the dead, that I stand before you healed.
Jesus is
“‘the stone you builders rejected,
which has become the cornerstone.’
Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.”

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.
For it is written:
“I will destroy the wisdom of the wise;
the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate.”
Where is the wise person? Where is the teacher of the law? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world?
For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him, God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe.
Jews demand signs and some Christians look for knowledge,
but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to some knowledgeable Christians,
but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Christians, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God.
For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.
Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were knowledgeable by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth.
But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are,
so that no one may boast before him.
It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
Therefore, as it is written: “LET THE ONE WHO BOASTS BOAST IN THE LORD.”

The Triune God created the heavens, the earth, and all things. His noble and incomparable name is “Jehovah, the Lord Almighty”. I don’t need to say anything for Him. He only asked me to speak honestly about what He has done to me. It was what He asked me to do. May all the glory and praise be to the Heavenly Father who loves us, the Son of God and the Lord Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit, the true God of our Trinity! Amen!

Brothers and sisters, after reading this testimonial, the three thoughts of “Impossible! Don’t believe it! Not convinced!” spring up in your heart, thinking that I am belittling your knowledge and that I am underestimating you. In front of our Lord, I have a soft conviction for you. Have you ever thought that you may have been fooled and blinded by the evil one? If you really want to know the truth, in fact, in the name of the Lord Jesus, you can command the spirit that uttered those three thoughts within you to answer you, whether the spirit within you believes that the Lord Jesus has become flesh, and you will know. May the Holy Spirit who dwells in you will make you believe the words of Ephesians 2:2 and 1 John 4:1-6 to know the truth.

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My dear son and readers! In this testimony, I will tell you what happened to me and how to overcome sin by the name of the Son of God, the Lord Jesus. This is also the most important part of my promise to my Lord Jesus. This article is divided into three parts, each with a five-minute reading time. I pray that the Spirit of God will guide your heart so that you can see in your heart what I have experienced and understand what He wants you to understand His ways.

Ever since the Lord told me to forsake evil and choose good, He will then have glory. He also told me to take a narrow path. Even when I was helpless, my Lord told me His precious blood was sufficient for me. I believe that what the Lord Jesus said to me through the Holy Spirit is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path! But I still have a problem, even if I ask the blood of the Lord to cover me and not fall too easily to the evil one, I still have no discernment to completely resolve the temptation of sin. It is because I also agree that those thoughts are right. The resentment that comes from the knowledge of distinguishing between good and evil, and the resentment that others have done to me or laughed at me, will often reappear when I pray or read the Bible every day on my knees. In my mind, even if I ask the Lord’s precious blood to cover me, I am often drawn to it as long as I am voluntarily being fooled. My mouth is reading God’s words in the Bible, but my heart is lost in clouds and mists thousands of miles away. I don’t like that kind of me. I want to meet the God who loves me from reading the Bible, but the thought that often floats in my heart attracts my mind. So many times, when I finish reading the Bible, I can’t remember the scriptures I just read at all. My mind goes blank like my memory has been stolen. Then I will feel sad about why I don’t even have that little concentration. And I wonder why the Lord told me that His blood is sufficient for me, but I am still defeated and feel that it is not sufficient? So, I often ask the Lord to forgive me and have mercy on me! But one day, I remembered that a missionary couple once said, “By the name of the Lord Jesus, we can drive away the temptations to us from the evil one.” Then after a while, a message from the Holy Spirit appeared lightly and repeatedly in my heart and it took many days for me to listen carefully to it. The message was like this:

“You don’t necessarily have to be tempted passively by the evil one and then ask me to have mercy on you. You can rely on me to resist those temptations.”

But at that time, I didn’t know how to rely on the Lord to resist. Then the missionary’s words were connected in my heart with the thought that had appeared in my heart that I could resist. However, I cannot remember how long after being knocked down, the day when I have teased again. When I read the Bible, I didn’t want to be knocked down again, and more importantly; the Holy Spirit reminded me that I can resist. So, in my heart, I say to the various resentments and the evil thoughts that have arisen in my mind, “By the name of the Lord Jesus, I command the evil one to retreat far away, not allowing You to annoy me!” As I said this, I felt a commotion in my heart. Or rather to be precise, in the depths of my soul, because by the name of the Lord Jesus, I feel that from my soul, something is expelled and stripped away from there. After that thing was expelled, the scenes and resentments of being ridiculed or abandoned in my heart, together with the restlessness in my soul, disappeared like the tide suddenly ebbs—— no more —— not at all. It is also similar to a rubber balloon that had been inflated with an air pump, suddenly the air pump was removed, and the balloon deflated and returned to its original shape. To be further simply described, it is the same as a person who was drenched in cold water and gave a cold shock, no longer indulged in the dream, and woke up. Over the past few years, I had tried countless times. As long I did not want to be fooled by all kinds of negative images or emotions that appeared in my heart, whenever I commanded the evil one in my heart, by the name of the Lord Jesus, to go away. There was a commotion in my heart at first, and then I woke up like taking a cold shower, and those negative thoughts disappeared. But whenever I no longer had the heart to rely on the Lord Jesus, thinking that as long as it is like chanting a mantra, those negative thoughts could not be driven away from my heart. That sentence, “By the name of the Lord Jesus, command the evil one to retreat far away” seems like having a spiritual that understands what I have in my heart. Only when I trusted the Lord with all my heart, I could drive those negative thoughts away and drive them out of my heart. Moreover, I found that the most important battlefield is in my dreams. If it was in the dream, I remembered “by the name of the Lord” to drive away the evil one. I had really won the battle. Those negative and dark thoughts were dissipated. If I didn’t remember or didn’t want to seek help from the Lord’s name, I would be knocked down. Then, I had to ask the Lord to forgive me so that those evil thoughts can be dispelled. By this year, when I had a…

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The days of such struggles have been going on for a long time, and until now, they will still appear, but I have begun to perceive them more acutely than before, but it has also made me very exhausting in my heart. When I tried my best to resist, but I still knew the suffering and felt helpless, the Lord said to me through the small voice of the Holy Spirit:

“My blood is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”

At that time, I did not understand how the blood of the Lord Jesus helped me? Why is it enough for me? One day, when I knelt down to read the Bible, and those negative thoughts were rampant again, I remembered what the Lord said to me, and for some reason, I said helplessly to the Lord in my heart: “Lord, please cover my sins with Your precious blood!” At that moment, the feeling was as if someone poured cold water into a red-hot frying pan, the fiery and restless soul was quickly cooled down by the cold water at that moment. I can’t even remember the reason. Gradually, before I read the Bible every day, I would pray first, asking the Lord’s precious blood to cover my sins, and praying that when I read the Bible and pray, I would be free from the sinful thoughts in my heart from the source, all kinds of negative thoughts or self-righteous thoughts are drawn, so that my mind will not turns away from the Lord Jesus. Then I slowly discovered that every time I asked the Lord’s precious blood to cover my sins, there was an instant vibration in my heart, like cold water pouring down a hot frying pan. The moment I discovered it, I felt why it was the same every time, am I so bad? Do I accept sin every day? But the source of the irritability in my heart was quiet, and I saw a bright turning point!

Then, one day, when I read 1 John 5:5-8:

“Who is the one who overcomes the world, but the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God? 
This is the One who came by water and blood, Jesus Christ; not with the water only, but with the water and with the blood. It is the Spirit who testifies, because the Spirit is the truth. 
For there are three that testify: 
the Spirit and the water and the blood; and the three are in agreement.“

The words that the Holy Spirit said to me and the scene of my heart being shaken every day when I was covered by the precious blood of the Lord appeared in my heart, and I had mixed feelings. Whether or not I thought that the blood of the Lord mentioned in these verses of the Bible was only a one-time occurrence of the Lord? Jesus poured out on the cross, when we are in trouble, we do not even need to ask, the blood of Jesus have washed all believers from the sin of rebellion before, now and in the future? I start to have reservations on this statement. Then, one day, when I read Revelation 12:10-11, it says:

“Then I heard a loud voice in heaven, saying,
“Now the salvation, and the power, and the kingdom of our God and the authority of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brothers and sisters has been thrown down, the one who accuses them before our God day and night.
And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death.” 

The spirit in my heart was moved, as if my eyes became clear, I saw that I was able to overcome the negative emotions in my heart came from nowhere because of the precious blood of the Lord and my testimony to witness that Jesus Christ is the Son of the Living God. I thank my Lord from the bottom of my heart, even if I am not perfect, but a Christian ruled by half the flesh and half the Holy Spirit, this has become my proof as a child of God, and I will be able to see the Lord’s face without fear after death. Good assurance, because the blood of the Lord, flowing in my heart and soul, is covering my self-seeking and self-righteous nature. In the last few years and in the future of my life, even if I stumble and fall, or I suddenly follow my fleshly desires and become hypocrites, as long as I kneel down to meet the Lord, He will let me see it in my heart, and I will ask him to forgive me and He will. The status of that honorable child of God is also a status that I do not deserve, because the precious blood of the Lord covers my uptight attitude and self-righteousness nature before His throne every day. I thank my Lord Jesus, who will come to find me in the vast sea of people, give His children the Holy Spirit, and cover all of His children with His precious blood! In this crooked world, glory to my Lord Jesus, until the end of the world, I will see His face again!

Brothers and sisters in the Lord, if one day you find that you have some negative or proud thoughts in your heart that you can’t accept that you have, or you often doze off and drop your eyelids when reading God’s words, or often cannot concentrate on reading the Bible and being attracted by the distracting thoughts that appeared in your mind. You must know the Lord Jesus is alive. If not, how can He remind me when I curse others? Nor will He remind me when I am at a loss that His precious blood is enough for me? If the Holy Spirit reminds you of my testimony when you are cornered, if you believe that the precious blood of the Son of God can help you, may you also experience the blood of the Lord covering you and covering the self-righteous-sinful source. May the Lord who protecting me from being destroyed by stumbling of my flesh will also keep your heart and mind until the day we meet Him again!

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Luke 8:38-39 records this:

“But the man from whom the demons had gone out was begging Him (Jesus) that he might accompany Him; but Jesus sent him away, saying,
“Return to your home and describe what great things God has done for you.” So he went away, proclaiming throughout the city what great things Jesus had done for him.”

Son and readers. Do you see how Jesus shows my sins in my heart again? Do you see How He cares for me so that I can receive His forgiveness? Do you see how merciful what Jesus did for me? Do you see that Jesus Christ, who came into the world more than two thousand years ago, is still alive today, watching all the people on earth, still speaking to His people, still teaching God’s people to break out of the bondage of sin? If He is not alive, how can He remind me to prevent my brother from sinning against Him? And how can He remind me to forgive My Father and forgive myself at the important moment when I am finally going to fulfill my revenge against My Father? Jesus is alive, forever alive. A lot of time, He does not need human being to spread His presence with our own knowledge and understanding. He only needs us to say plainly what He had done for us and it is what He is asking us to do.

Romans 11:33-36 say it very well on this:

“Oh, the depth of the riches, both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and unfathomable His ways!
For WHO HAS KNOWN THE MIND OF THE LORD, OR WHO BECAME HIS COUNSELOR?
Or WHO HAS FIRST GIVEN TO HIM, THAT IT WOULD BE PAID BACK TO HIM?
For from Him, and through Him, and to Him are all things. To Him be the glory forever. Amen.”

Because the Lord Jesus is the Son of the living God who created all things in heaven and earth and all living beings on earth, He is immortal. Since the Lord Jesus is immortal and lives with the Heavenly Father and the Holy Spirit in the hearts of all God’s people, and promises to appear to His people, why does such a housemate have little opportunity to hear His voice? The Bible Jude 22-23 and 1 Samuel 2:33-34 and 3:12-13, as the original text understands, it is impossible for the Heavenly Father, through the Holy Spirit, to warn me to prevent God’s wrath from coming into my Father’s house. This is completely impossible to understand in this way from a theological point of view. But for this “wrong” concept for Christians all over the world, and the Heavenly Father let the Holy Spirit showed me that it was right. Also, He wanted to excite me, to fill my heart with godly fear, and to prevent God’s wrath from coming for the sake of that unknown fear. But what is wrong in our perception can be right in God’s hands. On the contrary, the Bible records that self-righteous religious leaders often use what God has said to men, and although they teach the world to learn righteousness, some of them follow their own selfish desires to achieve their own goals, turning the words of the true God who created the heaven and the earth into ways to think they are right or self-interested. I give you two examples. God once asked Abraham and his descendants to squat down for generations to be circumcised as evidence of God’s covenant with them, but the words God had left in the Bible— to be circumcised—were later used by the Jews to use all kinds of deceitful means to prevent gentiles from accepting God’s gospel of setting people free, which fulfilled what the Lord Jesus said in John 16:2-3 and Apostle Paul said in Romans 19:2-3.

“They will ban you from the synagogue, yet an hour is coming for everyone who kills you to think that he is offering a service to God.
These things they will do because they have not known the Father nor Me.”

“For I testify about them that they have a zeal for God, but not in accordance with knowledge.

For not knowing about God’s righteousness and seeking to establish their own, they did not subject themselves to the righteousness of God.”

What’s more, God once said to the Jews that committing adultery should be stoned to death, but the Jewish leaders used what God had said, and used the woman who was caught for adultery to try to frame the Lord Jesus. What they said was right, the woman was indeed committing adultery, and God had said that she should be stoned to death. But they will use it to achieve their goals, eradicate dissidents, and kill the Lord Jesus, the Son of God. Therefore, things that were originally right were wrong under the influence of mankind’s darkness and deceit, and in the eyes of God. This cites Ecclesiastes 7:29 as a reminder from God to all of us, including Christians:

“Behold, I have found only this, that God made people upright, but they have sought out many schemes.”

Son, well remember what God left us Christians through Apostle Paul in 2 Corinthians 3:3-6:

“revealing yourselves, that you are a letter of Christ, delivered by us, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.

Such is the confidence we have toward God through Christ.

Not that we are adequate in ourselves so as to consider anything as having come from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God,

who also made us adequate as servants of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.”

May you be sure in your heart that the Holy Spirit will call you in different ways. Don’t be afraid of the call of the Holy Spirit in your heart, even if it is something that is not related to the context of that passage of the Bible, but it touches the depths of your heart, or something that you don’t like to know. Don’t be afraid or uneasy about things, you must know that He loves you and will call you in your heart. In your heart, answer the call of the Holy Spirit and say to Him, “Lord, what do you want to say to me? I am here, please say it to me.” The Holy Spirit will surely answer the prayers of those who are humble before Him.

I used to wash the outside of my cups and dishes, but I was still arrogant inside, thinking that no one knew what I was thinking, and that the true God who created all spirits was inspecting me every day. The truth is that I have been blinded by the evil one, and I am far away from the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Jesus is alive, forever alive. A lot of time, He does not need human being to spread His presence with our own knowledge and understanding. He only needs us to say plainly what He had done for us and it is what He is asking us to do.

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After I left your grandfather’s house that time, those resentments did not diminish. My mentality was somewhat not agreed with those resentments because I knew that God had not forsaken me as I rebelled against him, and once again spoke to me, telling me to forgive my father. So, I don’t want to sink into those resentments again. It was only me that know how difficult it was for those days. I was soberly resisting those dark and venomous thoughts, and every time it is like experiencing a storm of the mind. Sometimes those thoughts are directed my thoughts to my parents, sometimes to those who have laughed at me. As long as it is possible for me to sink into resentment again, it will appear in my heart countless times a day, trying to take me captive. I don’t know when it began, I began to resist those resentful thoughts, and often reminded myself in my heart that although the fragments of being laughed at were real, those imaginary scenes of revenge were not real, don’t be deceived, don’t be deceived! Sometimes the resistance succeeds, sometimes it fails. I can’t remember how long it took, but one day, when I was singing a poem in the church Sunday worshiping God, suddenly, a lot of fragments of my previous actions and thoughts, resentment towards my parents, although it was only a moment from the heart appeared in the flash, but it was clearly relived in my heart, like a bystander seeing it with his own eyes. Son, I bear witness to this so that you know that what Job 11:10-11 and Psalm 90:8 says are true.

“If He passes by or apprehends people,
Or calls an assembly, who can restrain Him?
For He knows false people,
And He sees injustice without investigating.”

“You have placed our guilty deeds before You,
Our hidden sins in the light of Your presence.”

Then I asked from within a knot in my heart that I really wanted to ask about the true God who created the heaven and the earth. I asked God, “Lord, I treated naughty in this way with my parents. Will you still love me?” The Holy Spirit said to me, “I love you!” How to describe it? It is not the “I love you” that we are all saying to each other casually. It is the acceptance of me as a sinner. Holy Spirit is telling me that “My son, I know all about you, light and darkness, and I still love you!” At that moment, the inferiority, fear, and uneasiness that offended Him because of self-seeking, self-serving sins, as if suddenly from the heart and soul, in that instant, was gently erased by the words from Holy Spirit, leaving no trace. It is as if all kinds of evil thoughts that come out of the heart, guilt and shame, are covered. Although it seems to be very illusory, it is really washing deep down in my soul. In that moment, suddenly, I knew in my heart that the God who created the heaven and the earth and all things still did not abandon me because of my sin, and still hoped that I would turn around and confess my mistakes and say to me. At that moment, an indescribable emotion surged into my heart, “Lord Jesus, still love me! He still loves me!” Tears flowed uncontrollably from my eyes, and this situation lasted for over half a year, and every time I knelt down every morning and night to read the Bible, or sang songs and praises to God on Sundays, because I remember that the Lord Jesus still loved me, or Holy Spirit gently in my heart, let me relive some of the things that had happened to me before, let me be like a bystander, see what I did and think, only to know that my real motivation at that time was not what I said on the surface, it made me feel sorrow, the tears flowed out of my own control, and then I said to God in my heart: “Lord, I am a sinner! Please forgive me!” Son, this proves that what the psalms say in Psalm 51:4/7/17 and Apostle Paul in 2 Corinthians 7:9-11 are their personal experience.

“Against You, You only, I have sinned
And done what is evil in Your sight,
So that You are justified when You speak
And blameless when You judge.”

“Purify me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
Cleanse me, and I will be whiter than snow.”

“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
A broken and a contrite heart, God, You will not despise.”

“I now rejoice, not that you were made sorrowful, but that you were made sorrowful to the point of repentance; for you were made sorrowful according to the will of God, so that you might not suffer loss in anything through us.
For the sorrow that is according to the will of God produces a repentance without regret, leading to salvation, but the sorrow of the world produces death.
For behold what earnestness this very thing, this godly sorrow, has produced in you: what vindication of yourselves, what indignation, what fear, what longing, what zeal, what punishment of wrong! In everything you demonstrated yourselves to be innocent in the matter.“

A person, if he knows that there are others who will not be disgusted or despised because he sees his dark heart and his soul polluted by darkness, the other party is obviously holy and flawless, but still accompanies his heart, waiting for his repentance and turning. I think to shed tears of sorrow, to regret myself, to let my soul be washed and cleansed by that undeserved love, which is the best medical effect. This is also what the Bible says that you are grieving according to God’s will, this godly sorrow.

It is also the same as what Mark 2:17 and John 3:17-21 say:

And hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick; I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

“For God did not send the Son (Jesus) into the world to judge the world, but so that the world might be saved through Him.
The one who believes in Him is not judged; the one who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God.
And this is the judgment, that the Light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the Light; for their deeds were evil.
For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light, so that his deeds will not be exposed.
But the one who practices the truth comes to the Light, so that his deeds will be revealed as having been performed in God.”

The Son of God came into the world to call sinners to repentance, not to the righteous. And after repentance, sinners will not be afraid to be illuminated by the Holy Spirit who dwells in their hearts in their lives, illuminate their past or present darkness. They will not pass by the Holy Spirit as often as in the past. It is because they are revealed in their hearts, as if they were a bystander, they can see clearly and clearly, know what their real motives were at that time. Therefore, they will grieve and hate themselves according to God’s will, confess their sins and repent to the God who created the heaven and the earth and all things. Such a person, if he is constantly guided by the Holy Spirit in his heart, his testimony will always point only to bringing man to the living God, simply to show that what he is doing is by God. Instead of trying to show yourself to everyone in every way you can, trying to prove that what you do and say comes from God in order to raise the social status in this world.

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Son, I can’t remember how much time passed in this spiritual situation, and then one day, such an idea appeared in my mind: “In this world, because of the boundary of parental and human relations, you can’t do anything…” I resisted this idea at first, and who in this world are so stupid and listen to this idea that appears from the heart for no reason. But then every day, those nights that accompanied you until you slept soundly, those thoughts of resentment, more and more. I hate your grandfather, not as much as I did to my son. Then one night, when my mind was completely lost, opened to accept the call of those dark and resentful thoughts, to let those thoughts merge completely with my heart, and no longer resisted. That night I came out of your room, I had a desire to feel happy that I could begin to take revenge.

Somehow, there were many methods of revenge in my mind that appeared for no reason, as if I had known them for a long time. I tried my best to make your grandfather thought that I were an unfilial son. I did not say a word of filial piety, but I gave him the opportunity to do what he thought was right. Then I wordlessly forced him, let him see his grandson, my son you, let him think that I was demonstrating to him, let him for the sake of face, did not want to express a little affection to us. So that you grew up, did not feel your grandfather’s love, there will be no he in your heart, let you and your grandfather, there is no emotional communication. I also force him have to break his promise to me, draw a line with me. Everything I have placed in his heart is for him to do what he thinks is right, and it is only to force your grandfather to be willing to alienate from our family. Then, when he was alone with me, I was still eating very calm as if he had never said a word of ruthlessness to me. At that time, on the surface, it was difficult for anyone to perceive anything different, but in my heart, I was living in darkness. This is the darkness in my heart, to retaliate against the words he often said: “I must do what I want to achieve, no matter what!”. I wanted your grandfather, the role is reversed, try the feelings of the victim, but everything is also what he is willing to step into. Later, there was a thought in my heart to kill a hundred enemies and hurt myself three thousand, but Holy Spirit reminded me many times not to keep this thought of the evil one in the world, so even if it seems that saying that thought will make you and others know more clearly how the evil one deceives me, I still feel peace not to say it. Son, only a fool will pay attention to the thoughts that come to mind for no reason and accept them as if they were our own thoughts. However, it is precisely because those thoughts are in line with what we are filled with, even if we know that it is stupid to do so. We feel that as long as it is reasonably sound. As long as no one knows what we really think in our hearts. A better way to distinguish is to say that we are righteous, that we are victims, and that those who hurt ourselves are shameful. We may also slowly begin to accept it, and secretly think that it is put into practice without God’s awareness.

When that day, I found the opportunity to make an appointment with your grandfather and grandmother, and said to your mother, there is something to talk to my parents about the day. When I went into their house at that moment, there was a voice of Holy Spirit came to my heart that I had forgotten for a long time. I thought it would be forever and ever loss my communication with the Holy Spirit because I had sold my soul to the wicked. So, God would never say a word to me again. But the voice that came from the Holy Spirit, still majesty and compassionate, appeared to me and said, “Forgive your father, and forgive yourself.” Then, I was ready for everything of my revenge, because of the word of the Holy Spirit, I began to feel some reservations. I also seemed to have suddenly, from that resentment, drenched in cold water and woke up, as if I no longer wanted revenge, did not want to sacrifice my soul, to hurt my father, your grandfather. As a result, I just sat wordlessly in front of your grandfather and grandmother. I thought for a while, and then said to them, “You both have a good life and live.” And I left their house. After I left, I did not regret the temporary cancellation of the final stage of my revenge because I spent so much time and effort on the opportunity to retaliate. I felt that I had let go of the burden. This fulfills what Psalm 33:13-15 and Job 36:8-10 say, which is true.

“The LORD looks from heaven;
He sees all the sons of mankind;
From His dwelling place
He looks out on all the inhabitants of the earth,
He who fashions the hearts of them all,
He who understands all their works.”

“And if they are bound in shackles,
And are caught in the snares of misery,
Then He declares to them their work
And their wrongdoings, that they have been arrogant.
He opens their ears to instruction,
And commands that they return from injustice.”

Son, I thank God from the bottom of my heart that, if He is not a living God forever and ever, if He is not looking at everyone in the world. He would not have known what I was planning to do, and He would not have spoken to me at an important juncture and reminded me to forgive myself. I wouldn’t have known that He still cared for sinners like me who had sold my soul to the wicked.

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