Dad, I wrote this letter to you. Although I posted this letter on the Internet, I want all readers who read this letter to testify to my commitment to you in this letter. You must read this letter, lest readers all over the world know what I want to say to you, and my father himself does not know.
Do you remember? When I was young, my mom often went to the back mountain of a village for morning exercise. When I was a child, once, for some reason, I wanted to go to the back mountain to find her. Our home is a ten-minute walk away, and I don’t remember how I opened the door and walked out. After two blocks, I suddenly turned around and saw you, Dad, still wearing pajamas, hurried over, grabbed my hand, and took me back home. I don’t remember whether you said anything to me at that time, I only remember your back in pajamas, and I was hold by your hand following you and walking home all the way. Recently, in my heart, there is often that scene of you holding my hand to go home. The Spirit of God often reminds me in my heart: “Your father also loved you sincerely, don’t be fooled by that illusion of resentment that often appears in your heart. When you were controlled by the evil one, I stopped you from making big mistakes and asked you to forgive your father and yourself. My promise still doesn’t change today. Do you remember? I made a promise to you when you first accepted me as your savior, the first time you begged me to rebuke you after you prayed, and fell asleep. Didn’t I say to you, when you believe in the Lord Jesus, you and your family will be saved? After you have been a confused Christian for more than 20 years and repent, am I not asking you to share the gospel with your parents through your son’s mouth? Didn’t I tell you when you later doubted and asked me, you only need to believe in me. Because of my name, I will also save them from the hands of the evil one. You have to seek me first My Kingdom and My Righteousness, and other things will be given to you.”
Dad, do you know that, in the past, my heart was actually full of despair. In despair, I have even more resentment. I used to hate all the false so-called benevolence and love in this world, and I also hated why I was cursed by God, and why I grew up in such a difficult family. Until I met Him, the Lord Jesus who changed my life, the Trinity God who created the heaven and the earth. He also changed my entire soul and promised that if I believed in Him, He will save my parents and sibling to have eternal life in heaven. When His promise first initially resolved the bondage of sin after I truly repented a few years ago. Secondly, I was self-centered in getting along with Him. Thirdly, I couldn’t really love all other God’s children from my heart. Fourthly, the resolution of my fear of suffering, ridicule, being persecuted, and even dying for sharing the gospel. Furthermore, my Lord Jesus made me understand that the precious blood of Him and His name can drive away all kinds of evil thoughts in my heart. The evil thoughts came from the understanding to distinguish between good and evil but just to please my own pleasure. I have already made up my mind to follow my Lord Jesus. In addition, the Lord Jesus did not enslave me. He never shouted at me in my heart. He is the Son of God. With such a noble status, He is legally having the authority to order me as a slave. Instead, He treats me as a friend. My Lord Jesus will only call me to voluntarily repent in my heart. Although I fear Him when He disciplines me. He has always respected me. Even thirty years earlier, He promised me and gave me the promise to lead my father and sidling to accept Him as their personal Savior. (detailed in Struck down, but not destroyed (Part 1 of 4)). At this moment, my heart is no longer bound by resentment and self-pity. Although I am still impatient with you, it is full of gratitude that I have never had before. Thank you my Heavenly Father for putting me to grow up in this family! Thank you Him, twice reminded me, let me prevent my brother from committing great sins against Him. And so, we can survive and have the opportunity to know Him. Thank you my Heavenly Father for calling me in my heart, preventing me from falling into the tricks of the devil, and wanting to perish together with you, Dad! Thank you Him for letting me miss you all the time, and thank you for the family that my Heavenly Father arranged for me on this earth. This family that people in the world who have never been truly forgiven will despise. On the contrary, the Lord Jesus taught me that my parent’s family shall be the most precious to me. So in this life, I shall share the Lord Jesus who gave His life and blood for me. It is a reasonable thing over everything.
When the Lord Jesus let me experience His love and forgiveness many times, although I still hate you for your selfish behavior, for your own purpose and face, even can spread disputes to your own family. We, brothers and sisters of your own blood, do not trust each other. But once, the Lord Jesus let me know that I still love you from the bottom of my heart, Dad! That time, I cried terribly. I didn’t want your soul to go down to hell and be separated from me forever. Although I sometimes hated you, after that day, I realized at the same time how much I hated you. It is the same degree as how much I love you too. You have been making arrangements for yourself after death at your funeral. You want me to offer you a stick of incense in your mourning hall. This will dishonor our Creator. I believe in the true God who created the world, the one who came to this world originally created by Him, saved me from the evil one, and made me a child of God. His words are the Laws and truth of the world and the universe. He said:
Exodus 20:2-6 records:
“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery.
You shall have no other gods before Me.
You shall not make for yourself an idol, or any likeness of what is in heaven above or on the earth beneath, or in the water under the earth.
You shall not worship them nor serve them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, inflicting the punishment of the fathers on the children, on the third and the fourth generations of those who hate Me,
but showing favor to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments.”
Isaiah 43:10B-13 records:
“Before Me there was no God formed,
And there will be none after Me.
I, only I, am the Lord,
And there is no savior besides Me.
It is I who have declared and saved and proclaimed,
And there was no strange god among you;
So you are My witnesses,” declares the Lord,
“And I am God.
Even from eternity I am He,
And there is no one who can rescue from My hand;
I act, and who can reverse it?”
Dad, you once questioned that in this world, so many religions say that what they believe in is the true God, how do you know that the Lord Jesus sharing by Christianity is the true God? Moreover, Christian believers also have many bad people. If the Lord Jesus is the true God, why are there so many hypocritical and self-righteous Christians, and Jesus cannot teach His own believers well? How can Jesus be the true God?
Dad, my Lord Jesus, is the Creator of all things, the Son of God. I have never heard of a God believed in by a religion who can tell a puny believer thirty years in advance that “when you believe in the Lord Jesus, you and your whole family will be saved.” Moreover, if the other so-called gods are true God, why did only the Lord Jesus come, in my heart, reminded me to forgive you and myself, and prevent me from taking revenge on you? (Detailed in One Thought Repent Longing to Heaven (1)) Why don’t other so-called gods come to stop me? Are those gods not godly enough and sleeping? Or do they have to wait for someone else to notify them before they are aware that I’m going to take revenge on you? Or are those gods waiting to see a good show, wanting to see us father and son fight each other? Why can the evil thoughts in my heart be quieted down only when the precious blood of the Lord Jesus covers me? Why is it only by the name of the Lord Jesus that I can drive those evil thoughts out of my heart and dreams? (Detailed in By the Name of the Lord Jesus (Part 1 of 3)) Why can’t I cover and drive away the evil thoughts in my heart by the name of other gods, or by their blood, or by reciting spells? The true God who created the world, there is no distinction between Eastern or Western beliefs. Jesus is the true God who created the world, the only begotten Son of God for all of us. God is willing to send His son to come to this world. In this world, Jesus is looking for lost people like me. People in the world will only spurn or ridicule people who they think are evil or wicked or too difficult to change. On the contrary, my Lord Jesus personally came to find me a sinner, stopped me from sinning, and reminded me that His precious blood is enough for me, and His name can drive away the darkness in my heart. He is reviving my soul and using His name to guide me on the path of righteousness. Can you tell me that is there any more sincere love than this?
In the entire universe, if there are other so-called gods, I will not believe in them. Those gods who don’t know that I am sick, cannot heal me, or turn a blind eye, I have no reason at all to believe in them. There is only the Trinity God I believe in, only Him, and He alone. When people were abandoning me on the surface or secretly, laughing at me in their hearts, or didn’t know how to deal with me, and let me live on my own towards self-dismissal in front of their eyesight. Even when I gave up on myself, He was still in my heart and did not leave me. He pulled me out of the mud, washed my soul, cleansed my heart, so that I could regain my Newborn, and taught me to understand His heart. I only believe in and kneel in front of my Savior Jesus, because He has never abandoned me. I will not do what will shame my Lord and still agree to your request. After you are passing away, in front of the mourning hall, I offer incense to you.
And, Dad, you need to understand two things. Firstly, without the Lord Jesus reminding me in my heart twice, my brother and I were taken back by the Creator early in our life when he planned to find a female for getting married before he repent. Secondly, without the day the Lord Jesus told me to forgive you and forgive myself, your hands would be stained with my blood, and the father would bury his own son. That day, when I entered your home if the Creator hadn’t reminded me through the Holy Spirit, telling me: “Forgive your father and forgive yourself.” I have an 80% to 90% success rate. After what I say to you and when you are in great anger, I will give you a chance to kill me. For the rest of the success rate, while you are in anger, I will grab your hand and stab a knife into my heart. You don’t need to know why I did that, you just need to know that I am your son, and I have passed on the true meaning of your words that you always keep in your heart and become golden sentences, “What I want to do, I will do it no matter what!” I am more ruthless and heartless than you, Dad. I want to take revenge on you, even to give up my own life and the wife and son who love me, no matter what. What I want to do, I will do it no matter what? Is it really worth it? How silly of us, Dad! It’s really two stupid father and son of the same family!
As for us, the people of God, the true God who created the heaven and the earth, he has already explained…
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