My son, the God who created the heaven and the earth, speaks to setup the laws. It is better to describe that as long as the Creator speaks, the laws and laws of the entire universe, heaven and earth, will follow the direction of His words to fulfill what the Creator once said to people, so that the words spoken by God will be fulfilled. Therefore, it is very important whether He really speaks to you through the Holy Spirit.
Son, it was very hard at the beginning for me to understand how Holy Spirit spoke to me at first. Put it more simply, even if Holy Spirit wanted to talk to me in my heart, I didn’t understand it. I often passed by in my heart and didn’t know. I have written the way Holy Spirit spoke to me and some important experiences in this particular letter, as a reminder for your future spiritual growth. You must keep in mind the experience that I, your father, sharing with you. You have to experience it yourself that Jesus Christ comes into the world to save sinners, because all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. May God protect your hearts and minds, and you will not be afraid to confess your sins and repent to Him because we are all spiritually wounded. God has promised forgiveness in many places in the Bible until the day we meet again.
I divided this letter into four parts, the first one is titled “One Thought Sinking Into Hell”, the second one is “One Thought Repent Longing To Heaven”, and the third and fourth are respectively “Letter to Dad.” and “Letter to My Son”. Parts 1 and 2 are also divided into several sub-sections of about five minutes each, which are convenient for you and the reader to read later. At the end I have something that I want to tell you. You are not going to understand it now. I still want to write it down and leave it for you to read in your future. I also need all the readers to testify that Jesus Christ is the Son of the living God. So, I put it on Internet for readers to witness with me. This is also what I wrote to your grandfather. Your grandfather does not believe that the Lord Jesus is the Son of God. I don’t know what to say to your grandfather so that he can finish listening to my testimony of how the Lord Jesus made me repent and confess my sins. So, I wrote to him. Dad, please be patient and read this letter as my last request, okay? In the last part of this letter, I have something to say to you.
Son, if you can’t remember, you can re-read what I wrote earlier, “Struck down, but not destroyed (Part 1 of 4)“, which contains a detailed account of the situation. At that time, Holy Spirit said to me, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you and your family will be saved.” But after that, for a long time, I didn’t know what a great grace it was! The Heavenly Father, with the Holy Spirit, reminded me in advance of what was going to happen in my Father’s house in the future, so that Dad could recall the Heavenly Father’s promise after it happened, that I could believe in Him by what He said to me, to confess my sins and repent, to surrender to Him and to receive the assurance of eternal life!
To illustrate what I have said above, I want to share with you my experience of repentance. Dad grew up in an idolatrous family and I had two older sisters and a younger brother. When I was in middle school, it was my big sister who took me to know and accept the Lord Jesus as my Savior. Your grandfather and grandmother, when we were very young, used to ask for our future for divination, and the divinator said to them that in the future your younger brother will be very clever. As we grow up, my brother is really smart. He can watch TV shows and studying at the same time, and he can also get good grades. My younger brother later went to an inland province of Canada to study medicine. He is really smart, but he is more difficult to get along with his shrewd and calculating thoughts, especially with girls. It is easy to be friends, but it is more difficult to get along and love. In one of the days of his life, a thought or a question came to his mind. It was an idea saying, “Do I not like women but men?” As a result, he saw an advertisement in the newspaper in which a boy asked to rent a room for another boy. When my brother moved into the house, he became a gay man. He also claimed to be born gay. Later, my brother came to live in the United States. When I came to the United States twenty years ago, he came to the bus station to greet me. After I got to his apartment, he said to me that he liked men and didn’t like women. That day, I had that feeling of thunder on a sunny day, and I just kept asking myself why this happens to me??? When I got up in the morning the next day, the sad tears could be able to flow from my eyes.
Later, I lived in my brother’s apartment for a year, and I tried to change him with the discernment I could think of. I also invited him back to my Christian church at that time, hoping that he might leave his homosexual life because of God’s love or because of the love and mutual care among other Christians. When he seems to have his own friends in the youth fellowship, I seem to have found a glimmer of hope in my heart, and maybe he will slowly change. But when one day I was reading Jude 23 of the New Testament, it said:
“save others, snatching them out of the fire; and on some have ercy with fear, hating even the garment polluted by the flesh.”
When I read, I had a feeling of palpitations. I seemed to see the image of my brother in my heart, which made me very frightened! I asked myself why this happened, but I could not find the answer, and over time I forgot. But not too long later, when I read 1 Samuel 2:33-34 and 3:12-13, it said:
“Yet I will not cut off every man of yours from My altar, so that your eyes will fail from weeping and your soul grieve, and all the increase of your house will die in the prime of life.
And this will be the sign to you which will come in regard to your two sons, Hophni and Phinehas: on the same day both of them will die.”
“On that day I will carry out against Eli everything that I have spoken in regard to his house, from beginning to end. For I have told him that I am going to judge his house forever for the wrongdoing that he knew, because his sons were bringing a curse on themselves and he did not rebuke them.”
The appearance of my brother, this time clearly appeared in my mind, and there was a very strong palpitation in my heart, as if if I did not stop something, something great and terrible would happen in my father’s house. Later, after investigation, it turned out that my brother was thinking that as long as he married the opposite sex and through marriage, he could get rid of the homosexual life. I did not know that it was because of the acquiescence or proposal of your grandparents, or that he also hoped that he could change it. In addition, he was a young doctor, and in the church fellowship, there were also some female fellows who were willing to contact him and be friends. I once asked my brother and my parents who knew about this, and naturally it came to the end of an unpleasant conversation with both my brother and my parents respectively. I don’t know what my thought and motivation were at that time, and I don’t know until now, but I just remember that at that time, I had a fear in my heart that I had never had before. I was driven to never let those terrible things happening no matter what. After struggling for a while, I personally told my brother to leave the church fellowship and not to come back right before the fellowship time. My brother tried to know from your mother why I was so determined, and when your mother told him that this was what your brother learned from the Bible, touched by the Holy Spirit, he left without saying much. Moreover, in order to ensure that my brother did not secretly associate with the female members of the youth fellowship in our church, I also told the pastors of the church about this matter. Later, at the suggestion of the pastor, I also reminded a female fellow of the youth fellowship who was closer to my brother that my brother had some personal problems and would not return to the church fellowship in the future. The pastors of the church, who may not know how to deal with me after my brother left the church, in fact, I can’t blame them, because in the process, Dad’s selfness surface emerged, but the angry thoughts that seemed to be drawn across the bridge and abandoned after being used up often appeared in my heart and mind.
Genesis 4:6-7 said it very well:
“Then the LORD said to Cain, “Why are you angry? And why is your face gloomy?
If you well, will your face not be cheerful? And if you do not do well, sin is lurking at the door; and its desire is for you, but you must master it.”
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